Saturday, July 28, 2007

BAGGAGE
(this is a boring one, you don't have to read it, this one is for me)
SOME TIME AGO I WROTE A POEM OF WHICH I WAS QUITE PROUD, IT WAS ONE OF MY FIRST AND THE JIST OF IT STILL LINGERS WITH ME, (I CANT FIND WHERE I WROTE IT)
THE MAIN THEME WAS THAT WE ALL CARRY SOME SORT OF BAGGAGE IN LIFE, IT IS BOUND TO BE THERE AND IT IS TAKEN CARE OF OR LOOKS LIKE
LINUS HIS DUST AND BLANKET, OR WAS THAT PIG PEN?
I, HAVE DECIDED TO KEEP MY BAGGAGE TO A MINIMUM AND TO KEEP IT TIDY AND NEAT, THAT HASN'T ALWAYS BEEN EASY NOR IS IT DONE. CONTINUAL TRYING IS IMPORTANT, THERE COMES A TIME THAT EACH OF US REALIZE WE HAVE A BAG THAT GOT BURIED IN THE BUNCH, A BAG WE DON'T NEED NOR WANT BUT JUST THE SAME THERE IT IS, AND IT JUMPS OUT LIKE A SORE THUMB. THIS PREDICAMENT CAME GLARING TO ME ONE NIGHT, AND BROUGHT THE BAGGAGE OUT AND THE TRAIL OF DIRTY LAUNDRY STRINGING OUT OF IT LIKE A BAG THAT TSA WENT THROUGH!
I REALIZE THAT THIS SITUATION MUST BE DEALT WITH TO CLEAN UP MY LAUNDRY, MY BAGGAGE AND MOVE ON WITH PRIDE. NOW MIND YOU MY BAGGAGE IS NOT GUCCI, NOR IS IT ANY OF THE FANCY STUFF YOU GET AT HIGH DOLLAR SPORTS SHOPS OR DEPARTMENT STORES, I IMAGINE IN THIS PARALLEL WORLD MY BAGGAGE TO BE AMERICAN TOURISTOR, IF NOT A GOOD TAKE OFF SOLD AT WAL-MART.
TO DEAL WITH POOR LUGGAGE THERE IS ONLY ONE WAY TO HANDLE THIS, DO NOT RECYCLE, DO NOT THRIFT STORE THIS IT MUST BE EXPOSED DELOUSED AND BURNED, IN OTHER WORDS, FIGURE IT OUT, DECIPHER AND CORRECT AND THEN MOVE ON WITH LIFE. THIS PROCESS CAN TAKE ANYWHERE FROM A SECOND TO ETERNITY TO ACCOMPLISH. AND IT IS ONLY DELAYED BY DISCOURAGEMENT.
***************MY DEMONS****************
THIS PARTICULAR BAGGAGE HAD A DEMON IN IT, i HAD TO GO RIGHT TO THE HEART, BUT FIRST ANY ENEMY MUST BE UNDERSTOOD, SEE TO CONQUER IS MORE THAN JUST TO KILL, YOU HAVE TO STUDY, UNDERSTAND, AND THEN STRATEGICALLY PLAN HOW TO CONTROL, AND IF NECESSARY KILL THAT DEMON, THIS WAS DONE!
-I UNDERSTAND THIS DEMON, NOT WHY HE BECAME BUT WHAT DRIVES HIM
-I ACCEPT HE IS THERE, BUT I DIDN'T ASK FOR HIM
- I KNOW THE REACTIONS THAT I HAVE HAD TO HIM
-I KNOW THE FALLOUT FROM THE FEAR OF HIM WITH MY WORLD
-THIS DEMON HAS CAUSE ENOUGH FEAR AND CONTROL IN MY LIFE WITHOUT ME KNOWING IT THAT HE MUST BE SLAIN, IT IS TIME
(THIS IS THE PART THAT TAKES TIME, BUT IT IS WORTH THE FREEDOM WHEN DONE)
see this demon is one that leaves me with little recourse because of the nature of it, sometimes we have no recourse to fix the damage he did to our village, and so we have to rid him from the land and move on with love and passion of life never let him dictate our moves, nor place fear in us, fear is warranted when he is there but when he is not we can rid ourselves of that fear.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Baggage...this is NOT boring. You, the boy from Wyoming have so much more insight than most could ever know. Accepting your baggage as part of you...please know it is not just as a deficit! It is part of what makes you, YOU! Like Linus' blanket that sometimes comes in handy, it makes you stronger than you give yourself credit for, stronger than you know, more caring than you know. To be troubled by your demons, what tortures you so? Remember the ones you have helped rescue from theirs and turn to them, sometimes you need help fighting the demons. You dont have to do it all alone, you would never expect your friends to, so why should you?